Follow your bliss

When I began my journey toward the end of last winter, I didn’t have much clarity on what I wanted to explore. What I did know was that I wanted to explore myself more deeply. A quiet but persistent desire began to burn within me, a longing to understand what makes me smile, what stirs my curiosity and what ignites my anger.

This desire grew beyond intellectual curiosity. It became about my being.

What delights my taste buds?

What does my gut respond to and how?

How is my internal health connected to my physical and mental well-being?

I began to wonder, instead of endlessly internalising and analysing my trauma, was there a path where I could surrender and let go?

For most of my life, I existed in cycles of dissociation or anger, shaped by life’s events. It wasn’t until recently that I grew tired, tired of circumstances, tired of trauma and pain and tired of giving others the reactions they expected from me. My focus shifted inward. I became curious about my inner world and asked myself, how do I explore love for myself?

I’ve lived a life of reflection for as long as I can remember, yet I feared being seen. The discoveries I made were kept secret. When I did share, about the wonders of the universe or deeper truths, I was often met with shame, much of it rooted in religion. Perhaps that’s why it feels strange now to see these once-hidden realisations openly discussed and recognised as fundamental truths. Still, I am proud of the awakening unfolding in the world.

Through this, I’ve learned that I must live my truth regardless of shame, misunderstanding, anger or fear. There is a version of myself I long to become, a version that has always lived within me. I was once too afraid to allow her to exist. Fear no longer governs this part of my journey.

Instead, I choose to indulge in my desires, dreams, hopes and faith. But that can only happen if I truly know myself. That is why this part of my journey is unscripted.

For as long as I can remember, I’ve held a vision of how my life should look. I suffered under my own expectations, clinging tightly to timelines and outcomes instead of surrendering to circumstance. I’m not saying we shouldn’t have goals or visualise our dreams. What I am saying is this, if you didn’t arrive where you thought you would or if the vision changed along the way, do not punish yourself for it.

Life cannot be predicted in steps. It cannot be controlled. It can only unfold. And as long as there is breath, there is the ability to transform.

I’ve come to believe that the best thing you can do for yourself is to follow your bliss rather than remain anchored to the past or anxious about the future. Following your bliss feels like a treasure hunt, guiding you toward where you are meant to be.

I’ve spoken before about manifestation and quantum leaps and I still believe in them. What brings you true bliss is the timeline you are meant to live. The real question is, are you brave enough to find your way there? Can you allow your joy to act as clues along the path?

Will you surrender to your joys?

As I navigated my inner world and allowed it to echo into my physical reality, something unexpected happened. The things I loved as a child returned to me. Reading led to writing. Writing led to reflection. Reflection led to meditation. Meditation led to affirmation. Affirmation led to health. Health led to Pilates then yoga which circled back to creative expression.

I began noticing what brought my body joy, what nourished me without causing harm and what supported my digestive system. It felt as though following my bliss was untangling my inner world and slowly, the world began to feel safe again. My nervous system started releasing subconscious fear.

I won’t pretend it’s always comfortable. At times, my nervous system flares, signalling danger. In those moments, I sit with my body and gently remind it, you are safe.

I truly believe that our desired realities live in joy. Life has become complicated for many reasons but this isn’t about negativity. This is my invitation, my hope, that you’ll join me in nourishing your inner world, protecting your mind and body from harm and surrendering to the Universe by treating yourself as a treasure hunt.

With love,

Laila🤍